for you

today.....how to describe today man

normal school day, after school went to far east "thats hairdressing" to cut hair with kuro before tenma joined and then kiyo came.

snipped off the self-kissing-length-ed fringe, getting irritating

supposed to give you time, but seem to be kept asking to see you

but then which guy wouldn't wanna see the girl he loves on the new years eve

ugh.

well had lunch of sorts at taka with my 2 bro's and lil sis. if that bit was considered lunch even. haven't had much of an apetite or mood to sit down and eat anything much these days. usual 4 meals been down to 3 half-meals just cause I'd prob roll in gastric pain if I don't eat at least something throughout the day.

then we left, kuro and kiyo had their date and stuffs and countdown fireworks stuffs. sorry I couldn't make the meeting you wanted to come true, kuro heh.

tenma and I headed to city hall, hung around with his bunch of sgcafe friends for a while before I head off on my own, if you really wanted to cheer me up I'm sorry then, just couldn't bear to stay with the bunch of ppl and their somewhat juvenile hyperness kind of thing, my mood's just not there, if one of them came up to me and asked me to join in I would've really whalloped him. the only thing that could keep me there was yea, kei's cuteness hahaz. but, then again I'm no pedo and my heart is already not with me. and sorry for the few girls that wanted me to join in for the sleepover countdown, not in the mood and condition to go for such a thing.

though the randomness of the bunch did made me forget my sadness for a while I'd have to say that. to think in the morning I was wiping the wet from my eyes. but it just got plain retarded after a while.

well I left all of them alone myself early nyways.

I miss you so much it hurts, did everything that happened before meant nothing? were you not happy with me at all? I don't wanna lose the feeling, I don't wanna lose you.

its just new years eve, without the happy. I never really bothered with the crossing of each year before, but now, its just so bitter inside.