for you

looking through old images and found this, the wallpaper I used to be using around 2 months ago

didn't want to blog here again, but it's the only place appropriate

http://i160.photobucket.com/albums/t190/y2kv1/wallP.png?t=1246128669

sorta made that to use, cause I was on attachment, had almost no chance to meet then

I didn't really look at it straight though I know how it looks like o course

I shan't deny memories

though I'll try not to recall right now

think I'll stop using this blog for the most part now,

I shan't lock it yet,

if I'll blog maybe I'll just use the lj unless I make a new blogger next time

on a side note, theres this thing I have to get out of me and put here,

whose this girl thats running in my head so much? her name's natalie

she's from my dream,

but dreams just have to come to an end no matter how much I don't want them to

she's cool, cute, awesome..she's the girl of my dreams, all I could think of

but she's not real, it was all a dream

in that dream, she's the only girl that could make this slacker actually thought of working harder

she was just really cool, she could do anything, and I couldn't ever take my eyes off her

I have a tingle of a feeling that I was really happy while I dreampt, alone in this grey reality, I think I actually felt happy then, the happiest moment whilst I've lived

it actually felt real, felt the longest dream I had, was I glad i had that dream?

I don't know, cause I did felt happy then, yet now that the daylights shining, all thats happy, its just all gone

I do hope one day I'll see that girl of my dreams again, reenter the same dream that could actually put a genuine smile on my face

till then

dream on this life

hm? what...why am I crying? strange strange

it was just a dream ken, a really long memorable one.

you have to wake up soon

go japanese cultural club camp as station master? I dunno

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merciless hurt

excruciating hurt

will it make me stronger?

or will it make me a worser person?

though I'd think I'd still be the same

edited blog's playlist just abit, removed a few songs, added in 2 less emo tunes, all american reject's I wanna and fort minor's remember the name.

can kinda groove moves to aar's I wanna -laughs lightly- "I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you, you wanna touch me too !~"

and remember the name's just upbeat and fierce sounding yet main-streamish in a way I just like it

fanboy-notchet-watched/coming out, but dunno if will watch

mizushima hiro:
jdorama-MR BRAIN

hiraoka yuta:
jfilm-subaru

channing tatum:
film-fighting
film-public enemies
film-GI joe

gah, why oh why am I fan of male actors when I'm not gay .____.

I feel like shit

if this goes on I'll see myself doing things I won't know

crazy things, maybe..I don't know but crazy like shit crazy

it hurts so bad inside

I can't grieve, its excruciating

the second rap song I'd listen to, and my fave so far, its just awesome

nth much to blog about so far

nth I can say

its been a while,

yet I still feel the same

thoughts of giving up waiting for you flicker here and then

yet I'm unwilling to do so cause I miss you so so much

maybe its the opposite for you, the longer you're away the quicker you forget me

I really still don't know

see how it goes

this blog will be open till the day I really let go

if there is even such a day

and when it comes

I'll either change blog, or stop blogging altogether

this blog was made primarily for your eyes anyway, if you're not bothering to come here anymore

I might as well

Cinderella man trailer, a korean drama I'm watching now lol


fighting trailer, one of the movies under my must-watch, thought not in cinema's here yet