for you

its not that I've never thought about it, but I just kept it all in

didn't wanna say anything straight, even in this blog(save my other one), I only put stuff in generic statements and here an there only.

but I'm really not feeling happy "most" of the time nowadays.

don't know if you'd read but I'd think you would some time or another.

doesn't always feel right, though I'd usually just think positive of everything to tune my head back in check sometimes.

how much we're communicating can be between 2 normal good friends. how much were seeing can be between just 2 casual friends also, save the few times where I request to meet just to go back tgthr if not I won't even get to see you. was warned that may not get to see each other alot before, but still, find myself walking alone almost all of the time. not meeting aside, alotta times don't even hear from you until I say something or when online, sometimes maybe you didn't check phone or smth thn I'd wait thinking I'd just give up waiting for replies that won't come.

really don't wanna say anything anywhere, but tell me what I'm saying isn't true and that I'm just thinking too much maybe?