for you

normal school day, though I kinda skipped quite the few lectures cause I really was too tired. the first lesson was practical I could alrdy nearly collapse. oughtta whack myself for getting too used to staying late.

hm~

heard a line in class about having no motivation to do stuff, well and I just thought inside, I really have no motivation to do stuffs anymore. I can't pay attention in school, can't study, can't go out, can't even slack properly zz

hahaz, thought I was...normal again of sorts, but I realize I'm not exactly. Not moping around, but I've lost my drive and reason to do things and somehow they're not coming back to me and probably won't for a while. definitely not a good thing since I'm in my final year of poly, though, I can't help it now. I'm just like that for now I guess.

stuffs stuffs, may be meeting farhan tmr for gym, and maybe cycle on sunday if I can/want

its really been a while since I met anyone else

I've really tried to believe in people thinking they'd at least try to make time for you when you need them, but sometimes it just isn't happening, those that got time are those that just happen to always be having time zzz and not exactly the people I wanna see. not gonna say names cause I'm too tired for that. ask for me to make time when they need, while none would do same in return. I really wonder why I continually help people.

"being kind just doesn't sell" I used the line before, I almost believed I got proven wrong alotta times, but it all always comes to nought at the end.

tell me tell me, what to do

don't ask if I'm still emo-ing or insane, cause I'm not.

I'm just lost

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Thunder - boys like girls

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

And I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

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always love

always.