for you

blogging and blogging again

if only trust was that easy to gain

it hurts so bad my eyes wet here and there even if I don't exactly cry

I'll never hurt you intentionally, the time I invited you over, I was afraid of going too far and may ruin everything that I didn't even dared to do anything like even holding onto your hand even though it was just us around. I admit I typed stupid things like how theres always stupid blogposts around, full of shit talk. but I'll never ever wanna hurt you.

though I don't know if words alone are enough to prove it.

I don't know what to do.

this is the first time I'm actually so in love and I'm afraid of losing you so fast.

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if I could put trust on the line(if this is even the right line to use)

I'd put my back-mind's words here

I know isabelle ain't exactly on good terms with me and neither am I the same frankly

isa's your best friend, thats why I tried making friends with her before, again, I don't know if intentions was brought across right, maybe she saw it another way, but at a point I got quite pissed and decided to ignore everything regarding her ever

going out with you even before, I was always also kinda afraid she'd be quite against me and well, say things about me, well, you've been with me for a short while, I can't judge myself, but you'd know how I really am, good or bad, to an extent

ugh, ok, I've put everything quite out from my mind for you this time